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"type":"text","title":"Being%20fat.%20","body":"%3Cp%3EHow%20do%20you%20define%20that%20you%20are%20considered%20fat%3F%20I%20am%20so%20unsure%20of%20what%20categorize%20as%20being%20fat.%20As%20far%20as%20i%20know%20men%20and%20women%20have%20a%20different%20definition%20of%20fat.%20I%20can%20tell%20this%20cause%20men%20do%20not%20consider%20me%20as%20fat%20and%20all%20the%20women%20that%20I%20know%20call%20me%20fat.%20My%20sister%20call%20me%20temok%20as%20in%20act%20cute%20way%20of%20saying%20fat%20in%20malay.%20I%20keep%20on%20gaining%20weight%20like%20nobody%26%238217%3Bs%20business%20and%20I%20finding%20it%20so%20difficult%20to%20put%20the%20weight%20off.%20I%20tried%20controlling%20what%20I%20eat.%20That%20didn%26%238217%3Bt%20work.%20I%20tried%20over%20exercising.%20In%20fact%20I%20put%20on%20more%20weight.%20Another%20thing%20is%20that%20I%20am%20unsure%20if%20I%20want%20to%20lose%20the%20weight.%20People%20say%20its%20ugly%20having%20an%20untone%20body%20but%20I%20really%20do%20not%20care.%20What%20matters%20is%20that%20I%20am%20able%20to%20eat%20what%20I%20want%20and%20I%20am%20happy%20being%20this%20way.%20So%2C%20let%20me%20ask%20myself%2C%20does%20not%20being%20skinny%20means%20that%20I%20am%20fat.%20What%20is%20so%20healthy%20about%20being%20skinny%3F%20I%20am%20confuse%20and%20I%20wonder%20if%20I%20ever%20scrap%20off%20the%20title%20of%20being%20fat%20and%20what%20is%20this%20about%20BMI%20and%20ideal%20weight%20to%20the%20height.%20Have%20they%20ever%20considered%20boobs%3F%20Like%20well%2C%20I%20have%20people%20that%20is%20of%20my%20height%20that%20does%20not%20carry%20the%20same%20amount%20of%20boobs%20weight%20that%20I%20do.%20So%20sometimes%20I%20blame%20my%20boobs%20for%20making%20me%20look%20fat.%20They%20are%20of%20an%20F%20cup%20and%20that%20means%20that%20half%20of%20my%20body%20consist%20of%20my%20boobs.%20My%20cousin%20ask%20me%20why%20am%20I%20always%20talking%20about%20my%20boobs%20and%20being%20fat.%20The%20reason%20is%20that%20I%20think%20that%20it%20affects%20one%20another%20unless%20your%20boobs%20are%20fake%20then%20I%20think%20you%20can%20be%20skinny%20and%20have%20a%20very%20big%20boobs.%20But%20for%20a%20big%20boobs%20like%20me%2C%20it%20is%20a%20little%20impossible%20not%20be%20on%20the%20heavy%20side.%20I%20think%20this%20dilemma%20is%20making%20me%20miserable.%20I%20shall%20stop%20right%20here.%C2%A0%3C%2Fp%3E"
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